Wish i had someone

welli really do wish i had someone now cuz the single life is quite boring.I need someone who i can talk with,someone for me to pamper.someone who i can call mine.someone for me to wish goodnight i love you dear.but that thing ain`t coming any linger i guess..its gonna take a long while though

TERM 3

This second week of term 3 was exciting:).The whole term 3 was exciting because i thought i would be repeating my term 2.my first week was quite uneasy because i was afraid that i was going to repeat my term 2.Aqil said that i`d receive a call on friday i were to repeat but i didn`t.and because of that.We kinda celebrated and went to aqil`s cousin house.The house was extremely huge wey.fucking huge.i don`t know if its counted as a banglo or not.it look more like a mansion than a banglo.it even had its own freaking elevator inside the house.They got like 4 police guarding the house.just by going inside,you had to reguster first before going in and the police would be like checking your bags and stuff.it was a little freaky but in the end.it was all worth it.we went down to the basement and as what aqil had told me.The basement was fantastic,superb,marvelous and other words that defines awesomeness.i tottaly felt like mtv cribs when i got there.i got some pictures but i`m too lazy too upload it.i`ll upload it when i have the time.and i`m not bullshitting you.:DD..it was xtra huge!..and they serve this little chocs that cost like 20 bugs each ..other than chocs.they serve cigars instead of ciggerettes.:DD.they were about 20 rooms according to aqil and according to myself,they were 5 tv rooms?or 4?i can`t recall.but the place is seriously nice.i never thought i`d be in one of those houses you know?the rich people house.i`ve been to a dato,yb or whatsoever my uncle`s cousin`s house in kuching but not one was as big as don`s house..its just huge.ohya!there was a theathre room and we all slept in the theathre room:DD!.but when we woke up,we thought the tan sri was pissed or some thing.turns out that he wanted us to sleep in the rooms the maid has prepared for us.:DD!.but its okay,that night,we went to genting:)!the trip was nice.but i`m too lazy to talk about genting.The whole week.i`ve been doing my best to go to class and not miss not even 1!and i pray now.and when i pray,god seems to help me a lot with nearly everything.i`m amazed of what praying can do and the boundaries:DD!.boundaries and self talk helps me a lot in my new term:).i hope i`ll pass my term 3 again and i`ll continue doing my practical in miri:)

Fullhouse

never did understood the meaning of love

comes so sudden,hearts disobeys when i`m with you

if i knew this shall happen,we never should`ve started

regreting like a fool have i

too late is it to pray you`re not the one for me

praying your not me

i lied to myself that you are my true love

hope this love between us is for a short while

afraid of hurting you,having you

so close yet so far

its such a touching song.It makes me all lovy dovy .haha..i know it sounds gay but its just so nice!!!!!i love this songxD!

thank you enchanted.you make me feel so much better:)

who`s eyes will i look into

hmmmmmmm..who will it be..no one..no one no one.

hee.its so nice to watch enchanted..it took me into my own lala land..i really got my spirits back again.Love,its just so wonderfulxDD

but then again its still corupted by people who plays love for the sake of lust.Then again.there`s nothing we can do about it ryte?we all got our parts in lust.we can`t deny it.Awh..how i wish i had someone.but fat ugly people don`t.like myself.ugly.but its okay.seeing people being happy is enough i guess.ohya.her.she`s happy with someone else and it hurts to see it but still happy for her:DD.ouh dear god.how pathethic may i sound but when will you grant me someone who appreciates me because of who i am inside out.someone who knows how to treat me right.*sounds sissy but its a fact*..haha..among all the girl`s i`ve dated.most of em would leave me for another guy.slim cute guys:P.hee..eventhough knowing words and how to do stuff this and that.it don`t matter that much if you don`t have a look.when you don`t have a look.you ain`t got nothing.Nadaa.not a single thing.capish?yaa..but like i said,i`m changing for the better.I`ll continue my diet mission and be slim!if i`m slim,at least i won`t be that ugly.Than all those girls tht i once cared about so much won`t look down on me as much as they did when they dated me...i know i sound pathethic but this is the things that i deal with everyday.Looking down on myself.wishing i was a better person.This blog is the only buddy i have that listens to me and by not saying anything in a way makes me feel better about my self.the grass is greener on the other side:(..i wish i was on the other side.ouh god give me strength to carry foward what i`ve been destined to do!

currently listening to true loves kiss:DD.haha.yaa..i never had my kiss>.<..but its okay.Like an ex friend used to said.my lips are fr my husband and my lips i guess are for my wifexDD!that is if i ever find a girl that would wanna marry an ogour.:(..
>lol...yaa..but again..i really wished i was born as someone else>.<

I`m a piece of thrash and i wish i was born somewhere else.

I seriously feellike shit.even my good friend did it to me again.its oure bullhsit

kesan ku knk takorg eyh.nak abis2 ngn hal daktok.sak ati ku.suka na juak ngambik kwn empun koh.dak sikda betina laen.eee..aku tulis lam bahasa sarawak sak puas juak ati ku!eee..mun ada juak takorg tebaca tok.e.nang eee.sak sak sak ati ku.pi sikpa..ilek jak..pa mok marah2...kan hak aku nak?

i seriously feel like cutting myself but i can`t cuz there ain`t no fucking kniife for me to cut my hand.i feel like going away somewhere far.somewhere not even fareez knows.i really wanna do that.i really wann ride a car or a motorcycle far far away and well..just ride it as i listen to songs that suits my mood:(.and then i can feel better about it myself.my brother`s pissed at me

and yaa..that`s another issue.but as i`m writting this.his already okay with it.There`s not one person that i can trust acpect my brother.other people well ongket philly and fafa..i trust them so much.i trust them well with almost anything but then again.ijust feel so down cuz of my friend.your really a close friend of mine and eventhough i don`t show it to others about how i feel about her.you knew and yet you still did it.i don`t know why.....

Mad for you

Over my head for a girl

knocked down for a girl

nothing feels better

then getting your feelings twirled

You make me confused

you make me happy

is the way you talk that you seduce

ouh,i wish i was your boyfie

Telling you was the hardest thing

Like going really fast when your on a swing

the excitement and the thrill

baby girl you need to chill

no matter how much i loved you

you won`t understand

all this feelings inside

just waiting to be turned into sand

consiciously waiting

for you to return the love

my heart was like a painting

you are my heaven and above

you would never know

how i truly feel

all you know is to tell me to chill

like she used to say

love is like a battlefield

I love my bumble so much>.<

Okay.for starters like ya`ll who don`t have a clue who this girl is.she`s a girl into a young lady.She`s pretty and yes.pretty people are ussualy unavaible and as you can see.she`s hotter than fire,cooler than ice.She`s a unique person.Quite unique if you ask me.From her looks,her race and her personailty.She`s thinks she`s selfish but to me she`s not.You gotta admit that all of us are selfish in a way.She is a fun person to be talking to.Talk to her and you`ll know what i mean.Whether when your having a problem or just feeling sad.well it does depends.cuz she`s not much of a problem solver.*sorry adq*.She has this amazing giggle.Her boyfie`s lucky to have her.He could listen to her giggle whenever he wants.Gosh.i wish she was mine.*coughing*.haha.ohya,she`s a shy person at first,that`s a normal thing.and well,base on my experience with this angelic creature.she`s kinda she couldn`t care less if you`d talk shit bout her.she`s always in her fantasy world but when she`s all emo.Trust me,she`d be a screamo.and umm.She enjoys pampering.She denies it but i know she does.The way she talks during the times that i pamper her.I know she does.and..she`s a complex person to understand.i don`t really understand her sometimes.she likes cute guys who understand her.so if you think your cute.give it a shot.you won`t regret it.She likes nickies.Give her a nickname once your a close friend`s of her.she has like 7?9 nick?quite amazing huh?haha.yaa..well the most important thing you need to know is.She`s fragile.don`t hurt her.She`s everything to me.I tell her she`s not but actually she is.And well.she knows i love her:).i wish she was my syg.and i mean mine:P.haha..

truly pino..

this is how one of my smk lutong fren did her about me.her bestfriend wrote one for her and she copy paste it.but if my description of you isn`t at your likes.i don`t mind that you don`t copy it.no hard feelings deq.sorry if it sucks:/...

daaa!

i love you adq;)..more than anything