Love is polluting my air

i`ll be here forever
even if you leave
and if you look for something better
soon you`ll say you`re addicted to me

if i ain`t got you
i ain`t got anything
can even feel the pain

when i love you
its so untrue
i can`t even convince myself
and i`m speaking as a voice of someone new

and if you don`t mind
can u tell me all ur hopes fear and all that u believe in
and can u make a difference in the world
i`d love for u to take me for a deeper conversations

just a portions of song that somehow relates in a way

Hafiz and Yan

this two guys are what i call lala brothers.haha.they`re nice and well yaa..they`re the guys i open up too..themost...haha..yan`s 1 year old younger.but sometimes i act childishly so he is maturein a way.but still i choose to be childish.i cn act maturely if i want too.but idon`t.cu being childish ismuch more fun and its not stressfulxD!!

hafiz is the guy who cheers me up unintentionaly.i love to see himlaugh.haha..whenever he laughs and i`mdown cuz of something..i`ll automatically laugh.haha.or perhapssmile..haha..


wellyaa..if the two of you are reading this.thanks formaking my life in kla HELL lot of fun:DD

i love thunnders,strorms and rains..

I feel very calmed during this type of events during whenever..i really love to either listentomusic loud using a speaker or headphones..i just love to..it makes me think so much that everything becomes clear..

the sound of thunderlike bOOM BooM!and the lightning.they make weee.i like the colour that it gives out..no matter what music i`m listenning to right.i`d just enjoy the scenery..plus...i really love th wind blowing my hair..i somehow feel free.feel like there`s not a problem that can stop me..and somehow.i feel like an old skool assinator about to murder someone in the most silent and fast way possible..talking about assinanting.i took a test in fb.aahaha..i`m a great assinator..if i had a gun and i knew everything about doing so.i`d so assinate some few peoples in my life..ahaha..i`d so do that during storms:DD...

well.i just love rainy days and storms..i wish they`d come during evening or night....i just love the thunder roaring and the rain...it reminds me of someone too since she was the first person that i told about how much i love the storm.....but the most important thing is..i enjoy the stormy moments.....

i seriously need to study for my maths and accounting

Its only like 2 weeks plus left till the final exam..like seriously hard laa wey the exam..damn..i`m bad at maths..for sure i`ll be bad at accountingtoo....trying my best to cope with all my studies.and when i say best..for sure someof your readers say..lol..fadh..ofcourse lorh.....

i`m trying my best within my reach..i can`t do shit about it guys...i`m just stupid..iadmit it..well stupid in this type of matter..fadhlee+numbers=failure.....

perghh
ohya..i`m quite actiove in myspace now since fs is quite boring..and i`min kl..gotta interact with the human nature here...my buddies told me to get a gurlfren here.so it`ll make my life easier..the thing is..girls here are way to hot for an uglyshit face like mine..and plus..i love my gf..so yaa..

ohya.umm..fyra...yaa dyg..you are hot.i gotta admit.hehe..but i don`t regret breaking up with you since we don`t have any feelings for each other..so what`s the point of dating..:PP..true o not?

plus...u`ve dumped me foran emo before remember??:P..
hehe
so were even now!haha

ohya..my adq was fucking annoying on the phone last night.i was likeasking who`s she`s texting..and she`s like..why do u care.."u know why i care la chow cibai.."....and she`s doing that evil laugh..lol...Philly you evil sister.:PP..
haha...
sunday is suppose to be nice but my sunday today is a disaster...i`mgonna have camp tomorrow which explains why i`m not sleeping..i gotta be up by 5 and i cn`t sleep now cuz i have a hard time waking up:/.....lol...
so yaa...gonna write as much as i can in my blog today.:DD

WTF guys?

you guys seriously are just fucked up,since back in high school you guys got this thing against me huh?chow cibai gan yi ma puki.i`ve never talk shit about you guys and you guys on the other hand still do.fuck off from my life okay?
1.i`ll never admit what you guys have accused me off because i simply didn`t do it
2.leave me alone
3.yes,you guys have much more better lives and yes my life in highschool was a living hell thanks to you guys
4.for a moment,i believed josh about what he said bout you guys,now i know he just doesn want me to think badly about myself


ya please,just don`t come into my life anymore,i won`t bother you guys and you won`t bother me okay?seriously.don`t ever come into my life ever again

here without you baybeyh

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me, yeah

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

Everything I know and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

Mafyd

would it be
how can it be
seriously weirdly
evil yet efficient
how could you be
you can`t see
what i see
so shut up
before you get the wrong idea
how i work and roll
i`m just getting to my goal
i know how it works
cuz i`m the one who puts the twirk
not you not him nor her
don`t make nussy excuses
don`t make excusation
i`m in it for the thrill
for the fun
for the love
for the hearts will
how could you ever know
how could you ever understand
cuz the feeling ain`t with you
cuz the feeling is with me
and that is why you`ll never know
and one more thing
and yes i`ll never believe you.
cuz you can know and feel if the feeling is there but its not
so what`s the point what`s the fact ?
were u trying to prove ur act?
hehe...i was just ryhming...bored laa today...

MAFYDxD

ya`ll gotta learn:D...seriously..haha

thanks ya gangtsta!

my housemate went back to JB and borrowed me his camera..i feel so damn lucky!wan!ur so nice in a way:)...just like how yan said:D

how would you know?

heartless was a song.was just a parable of how the situation is.don`t get me wrongly.its a tottaly different thing from the song.okay?so yaa.live a happy life for you know how i`m able to cope.no.i don`t believe it:]

tuesday yesterday was the worst

i left the phone there cuz i wanted to take the keys for u guys.and u took my phone and gave it back 5 hours later...omg.....i felt like hell for that 5 hours u know?and u guys made a laugh about it.haih.............i would really wanna see how you guys would`ve acted if i did that to u.u guys wanna tell me to text less.tell meproperly.not by secretly taking my phone on the fucking shoe rack because i wanted to opened the fucking door for u guys.i respect and love you guys but that was kinda mean.my phone is my life.get the facts into ur head.i can`t survive without my phne.so please.dun ever pull that type of stunt ever again.seriously.i blocked my sim becaus ei lost my phone and u guys laughed.my god................arrgghh!!!!!!!!!!!pissed off but i don`t wanna scold you guys since you guys gonna scold me back later on if i do sumting wrong and i always do.and hey!i`m a fat ass!i`m a dickface!i`m a pimp!i`m stupid and i don`t what to do so i ask alot.anymore additions to it?i`m annoying?what else?i talk a lot?i`mtoo goofy for ya`ll?too childish?anymore to rain on my parade?make my day grey?anymore ways of doing so?do laa..dosome more until u all satisfied.i know you guys just joking.i also joke around a lot.but u don`t see me joking calling people dickface.u don`t see me taking ur phones.even if i did.i`d give it back 5 minutes later.wana show me i`m an asshole fucktard?yaa!go on and showme.prove that i am one.argghh....okay..now i feela little better...huh..thanks for reading:)

you break me:/

i say it gracefully

let my guard down

you hurt me like a cut at the heart

closer you took me to you

you gave me the feeling

of dozens emotions

maybe i`m wrong

misinpreted as love

wrongly was i

but my heart 

adores you deeply

too much really

always adoring

you break me

always breaking me

you break me

just by knowing

you light my soul

you darken my soul

you break me 

again and again

just by knowing.

you knock me down

and you knock me somemore

you break me

you break me

just by knowing

raining on my parade

likes to rain on my parade don`t cha?you`ll soon see:)

Wolverine origins

we went to see that movie last nite thanks to my friend pak.he gave me 3 entrance ticket to see the show....1 ticket equals to 2.so i got 6:D...i brought 5 of my friends and we all watched the movies....than we went for shisha at a place nearby:P...hehe....yaa..and on the way home..we found a stray cat that follows me back to my apartment:P..well..yaa..and then..umm..the thing is....i`m miserable...being miserable..........phillly ain`t near...:/................................................then i heard knock me down:P...i was like...pergghhhhh...terbaek..adduuuuhai...wanna cry that time..i know..congek and so dramatic..but i don`t care laa..my personal life has nothng to do with yours.man..i miss her.

Went to midvalley today toaccompany hafis:)!

we arrived at the ktm at around 7.35.we went and withdraw some money first.then we entered the train and went to midvalley.arrived around 9.26?lol..ktm is damn slow......but the trip wasnt that boring..cuz like..i kinda used afiq`s mp3 wihthout his knowing??haha..sorry fiq but thanks for borrowing me the mp3:D.....when we arrived tomidvaley.we went on a search:D.we went on a search for hafis`s sister:D...hehe.when wefound her.we went and ate at secret recipexD!!!hehe..damn nice the chicken!i like.hehe.and then..what we do.we talk and ate.then we went back and again.ktm was so damn slow.pissed with ktm.espcially ariz.he was like chow cibai.cibai.cibai.haha..i kinda like the tense moment.haha..he was also kinda having a fever though..that`s why..huhu...but all and all..we had a very fun day:D..:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABAH!:DD!LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

its daddy`s birthday today:)!hehe..abah!i just wanna tell you i really really love you!like seriously love you!!!eventhough u scold me like dozens of time a day!i still love you!but seriously dad..u need anger management..but still i love you!i love you just the way you are!!!kedekut for the future:)!strict with religious matters and always being cool whenit comes to serious matter.haha..dad..i miss you abah dolok terer men bola and all that stuff.i seriously do!and daddy!when i come back.i will give u a present..maybe not as expensive as the gifts you`ve gave me but i will give u in 10 years time.or 5 or 6.iwanna be rich and much more sucessful then you were.that`s yourgoalryte?your kids to be so much better than you are and you as our hero!and dad.believe me..u are my hero:)!!!!!!!!you`re tough! you`re good looking!i love that luke skywalker look during ur twenties:)!its hawt!if u were in ur teen years now.i`m sure a lot of chicks would be like after you dad:D!!!!!me and fareez are also what we are because of what you taught us to become the man that we are today.haha.dad..i`msorry for smoking but abah!u were alsoa smoker and u stopped after you got married and maybe i`llstop at the age of 50:P.haha...i`m not like you 100% ya know?hehe..and dad!both your sons have your charm and anger management and that patient..haha..but fareez..i dunno laa..haha..love you dad!please stay with me until i get child and my child gets a child!i wanna spend more time with you dad!

ps dad..i wanna have a father son ciggerette moment.u me n farez..i dunno if farez is smoking or not but after form 5 i`ll sure ly teach him to smoke:)!hahaha..love you dad!HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MR MACHO:P.haha

eyy!

you can tell your boyfriend that i`m a vegetarian and i ain`t fuckin afraid of him

i `m hot his not

his skiny shit i`m filled with happy bits

you know the truth and yet you deny it

just tellhim your leavin

never to come back again

you know i can do it better

there`s no conclusion to what you can do when u bring in forever

what does he have?

sings like a pussy 

and i sing like jesse mcartney

i`m happy go lucky

him macho a milli

more like aku macho tapi tak jadi

i rap but does he?

i smile i shine i`m just filled with style

110% guarenteed

satisfaction to max

i`m not bullshitting 

but i`m telling u the facts

if its a matter of love

i`m gazillion and above

i crawl like spiderman

i fly like superman

i drive like batman

now whatcha gonna say?

owh gosh its peter pan?

no!!!!you say yes and say you`ll be happy in my arms forever

and we`ll get down down down down

just big weird smiles,no empty shit frownsxD!!!!!!!!

hmm..feeling uneasy and amazingly happy

i don`t know if this uneasy feeling is a feeling that i should concern about or sumthing that i should just let it pass.i don`t know.but yaa..my gurlfren today`s not using her phone.like damn.arrgghh....btw...philly was kinda sad again today.but i don`t know if what i did cheered her up.i cursed her and made sarcastic jokes.i`m trying to be a sacrcastic asshole to her in a way cheering her up?haha..idunnno..william is a sarcastic asshole.and ya,by being one.he cheersmeup all the time.that`s why i love having him around the apartment..ohya..hafis sleptover..and his still asleep at my bed...snoring.haha..hafis is a funny and a very nice guy.he practically likes to do stuff so randomly..just like li wen.his like suddenly laughing and shouting or sudenly stood up and dance..lol..haha..well..i guess thisuneasy feeling will have to wait...hmm....oh ya...i just found out bout sumthing too..and that`s the reason i am very very very happy!

My mind is set

i know what i will do.i`ve thought about it properly and this is how i`ll handle it.Properly and planned.iloveher;]

A guy who i feel is kinda wooo...

there`s  this guy whom i don`t really like in my batch..his kinda like being a jerk.his a nice guy its just that he talks a lot of shits and craps that don`t make sense..like seriously wey.get a life and stop making shitty craps about ur life.u have a great life going.don`t screw it up.people look down on you because of your lies.i didn`t say anybody`s name.but likeseriously..i tell u laa...GET A LIFE..ur 19 years old.your not in ur young teenager`s age nemore..ur a teenager growing into a young adult..grow up.you can do childish things but please.think about other people before u act.i know myself very2 well.i`ve made loads of that mistake.i tend to keep on doing it but please laa..you should seriously review yourself..............

LIMKOKWING:D

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

7/05/09

Today....i couldn`t wake up for my fucking class..again...fuck laa...i seriously got a problem.....:\...and i need mc for my maths and accounting class...i skipped like 3 classes for both of the effin class...and now i have to pay bunny 30ringgit for the mc`s...2 mc...for two classes:D...haha..and one more thing..i got a accounting exam for tomorrow and like damn!ariz and haniff went to ridzuan to study and they thought i didn`t wanna come along..waaaaaaa:((...har la like this...tomorrow gonna study my ass off with ariz...hope i cn cope up very quickly since i`m a slow slow ctahing guy....like extremely slow..not slow as like patrick in spongebob..hahha..but kinda slow...i guess...hmm...i`m just gonna pray to god and hope everything wokrs out tomorrow...ohya..the friday prayer...how to go if got exam...i seriously wanna pass the exam........if i fail...it`s gonna be like damn..my parents spent thousands dfor my studies and i`m gonna fail....damn...i dun wanna repeat my term...i dont want to...and i will stand up to what bull said about term 2 being a hard term and all..just gotta keep holding on and learn to cope with the timetable and seriuosly need to learn and sleep at 11 o clock...or else..surely gonna repeat one...but like i think i can do it..i think laa....i need supports..but no one`s here to support me..i`m alone...i got buddies but they don`t really know how i feel.They`re intrepetation of myself is a guy who really couldn`t careless about the things happening around me.and i`m a blurry guy.........lol...i really wann excel in my study...i really do.....:((...i need it...very much...dear god please help..

ty

viytgvbjkgh

Today was tiring

Damn..every day of my life..i get worse in college..i don`t ever wanna repeat term 2.i`mgonna try and do my best at attending all the classes and being 110% attentive in class...i have to or else..i won`t be able to understand a thing and at the end..i`ll be like duhh..and one more thing..i spend 25 ringgit on this seminar crap thing..and i only have 52 ringgit left..i really hate asking money from my parents...i just do...but the seminar thing was worth it since it has this free haircut thing and 2 freepasses to euphoria.me and bunny was like damn exited and the whole class was like laughing at us.ahaha...i just did that smile.haha..and ya...we paid the gurl and she told us to go and get the ticket later on.we went down stairs during breaktime and then we find the girl and she was never to bve found.me and bunny was like..chow cibai.we got scammed ah?and then we saw one of her frens..i called him out and he told me to call the girl`s number on the flier and get the tickets tromorrw..the most special thing about it was getting those MOS tickets:D...going mos for free baybeyh:D!

Messed up

Everything seems messed up..not like things with friends but school....i really need to sleep early and tell my friends i can`t text till midnight nemore.haha..and money...i keepoverspending whenever i got money.Yan saysi know how to save.but my the way i save i not enough.i need to bring it to another level where i cans pend all my money at the end of the month like i`m not always broke.haha..450 permonth in kl is seriously not enough espcially when i`m a smoker.haha.about lunch and all that.i can starve.i don`t really mind.my stomach can handle.haha..but thirst.i am a guy where i consume 20% more water then anybody else..haha.i`ll always buy nescafe..gotta stop that addiction.haha.